Deep Feelings

   Everyone sees a smile on my face, a laugh from my breath, and a happy attitude from my body language. But that's not how I really feel, it's never how anyone really feels. Everyone has that deep feeling that is waiting to come out and ruin their day. But if we let those feelings out and into the public, we're bringing attention to ourselves and possibly ruining other peoples days as well as our own. No one likes to ruin another persons day, so we wait till we're alone. When no one can hear us, when no one can see us, that's when the demons come out.
   People say they're OK, people say everything is fine, but we all have those days when an evil is dragging us down, making us uncomfortable and sick to the stomach. It's always hard to get rid out those feelings. When you think they've gone and your day is looking up, the feelings sneak up on you when you least expect it.  You could be having fun with friends when all of a sudden you just don't feel good, and your mood goes downhill from there as you begin to fake your happiness. You just want to get away and let out everything you've been holding in.
   Of course you think I'm happy, and you think nothing's wrong. Everyone has a good poker face when it comes to hiding things we don't want anyone to find out about. You think I'm happy, you think nothing's wrong. But really... deep deep down. I have to fart so bad.